More often than not, I question mankind's tactics and morals. Of course there are weird social norms and heavy amounts of hate and bashing towards those who don't fit in, but I kind of feel as if we subconsciously choose to keep this lifestyle up. It's easy for one to reflect on their social settings and notice all the bad, but it takes true effort to reflect on oneself and question whether or not they instigate these ethics, or try and change them for the greater good. Rome wasn't built in a day, and the world cannot change with only one person preaching unless we all listen and change ourselves.

I find the relationship between God/Satan and humans interesting. I know that when bad things happen to Christians or other people who believe in God, they just assume that it's God planning greater things for them. This makes me wonder what those who follow and believe in Satan think when they have bad things happen to them. Do they assume life is just evil in itself and that it's how things are supposed to be, or do the rejoice with the concept of evil power surrounding them? What do witches think when Satan allows them to be murdered?

I love the ideas and stories behind witches. I grew up hearing about the salem trials and the lynching of suspicious women. With my love for strong female roles, I was drawn to the tales. I was of course enraged that innocent women were being murdered, but I like to think that the idea of witches is true and that they didn't go down without a fight. Especially after the new movie The Witch and all the new renditions of the history following these types of women, my obsession for powerful women grows and flourishes.

Recently I feel as if I have run into a few spiritual walls. Perhaps it is because I am moving soon, or that I quit my job and have much more free time, but I feel as if I'm not grounded. A few weeks ago I would act and do things with ease always trying to be positive and peaceful, but now I feel myself sinking back into negative situations. Perhaps I need a reawakening or a cleanse.. or perhaps I'm destined to live a materialistic life free from any spiritual guidance. This also reminds me of a friend of mine I saw the other day; he was discussing how humans have come so far in life and evolution and how we've created such a dynamic system for ourselves, when in all actuality we are just animals that live, breed, and die like everything else in the world. I reflected on myself as a human and was disappointed at how I try and fit in, following cultures and trends when I should focus on my soul desires and vocation of life.

After viewing the Dante's Inferno animation, it reminded me of the Gods of War games. I began to watch game plays of the third game and in the end of the walkthrough, the almighty Zeus gets murdered by his son. The idea of a son murdering their father is peculiar itself, but imagining mankind killing God is intriguing. Although we can not physically kill the being because he is not tangible, we can destroy him through lessons. If the idea of God becomes irrelevant and no one passes down the lessons of him, he will die along with the religion.

Historic art, especially that depicting the Devil, is some of my favorite art. I love the diverse ideas and aspects people have. It makes me question the artists growth into adulthood and what made them perceive Satan as what they depicted. What did one artist know or hear about Satan than another didn't? I love the loom that each painting has; the ability to portray an ominous presence can be difficult which only makes me appreciate this type of art more.

Today at work, I reminded my Manager that our District Manager said not to blame one another for things not done right. He said that that was his job, blaming people. I later thought about how he accused everyone except himself of wrongdoings and connected the dots that he is Satan. On another note, I continue to question my beliefs, maybe being kind is the key to happiness?